“I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough.
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up.
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again just who I am because I need to know.
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing.
You say I am strong when I think I am weak.
And You say I am held when I am falling short.
And when I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours.
And I believe…
What You say of me.
The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me.
In You I find my worth…
…in You I find my identity…
Taking all I have and now I’m laying it at Your feet.
You have every failure God.
You have every victory.”
– Lauren Daigle
“You Say” lyrics
It’s been a very long time since a song and it’s lyrics have so touched my soul in a way that’s almost indescribable, but I’ll give it my best shot.
The timing of the release of this song couldn’t have been more perfect and I know that’s because God’s timing is perfect. He knows just what we need, when we need it. We don’t always understand why things happen and we don’t always get an answer right away, but I have definitely learned that if I trust in the process, good always prevails!
I’ve also learned that I cannot lean on PEOPLE for comfort or really anything, for that matter. Not even those who are believers, as confusing as that may sound. People are not perfect. The world is not perfect. It is a broken place, full of hurt and disappointment. We have to stop blaming God for the actions of the world and people who do things in His name. We don’t blame Honda for the things Honda drivers do. So why is it so easy to blame God whenever “religion” or people hurt you? God is not an organized religion. God is not a long list of rules.
Study His word. He sent His only son to end the law and the “rules”. He died for US. Even the worst of us.
God is LOVE.
Religious people have hurt me more times than I can count and have told me that God doesn’t love me because of choices I’ve made or that the way I believe in Him is wrong, but it’s a good thing that their words and their crude behavior doesn’t determine my opinion of Him. My personal relationship with Him, through my OWN revelation of His Word and Promises does, and that says otherwise!
This is why it is so important to seek Him for yourselves! Maybe you were raised in a Christian home and simply taught to believe, but never understood why you did? Maybe you never knew Him? Maybe you were taught that He doesn’t exist and the entire idea is ridiculous and a waste of time? Whatever the case may be, what could you stand to lose by just seeing for yourself? Can you honestly say that you are living life completely fulfilled? Never searching for something more deep down?
Now, don’t get me wrong, pursuing Him is not easy and for many, there will be great opposition to face. I sure have walked through my share. But I can say with absolute certainty, that I’d rather walk through a thousand trials while seeking Him than to keep living the life of my past, never knowing Him at all. Lost, broken, confused and empty. I’ll never go back there. That’s not living!
Although I have much growing to do and I often feel unworthy, I know that I am created for so much more than this world has lead me to believe.
He is changing my inner voice and helping me to see myself the way He sees me.
So as I’m listening to this song on repeat for probably the 100th time and typing these words to you through tears, despite the snarky, indirect advice of other more “churchy” folks who have said it’s better to just keep these messy feelings to myself, I want to say to you, seek Him. Allow Him to show you what He has for you! You can always choose to walk away again if you want to. What do you have to lose? If you look and still find nothing then so what? You carry on with peace in your mind knowing the rest of us are nuts, right? But what if we’re not? What if God really is pulling at your heart and wants you to spend eternity with Him? I’d say that’s a pretty big deal.
So are you ready to do your own searching and stop allowing “churchianity” and broken people to make up your mind for you?